There was a time I was shy and it was in the childhood years. The feelings within me were too much for me to bear alone, but alone I did bear them. I was only five or six years old. It’s truly strange that they were so severe that I wanted to go to sleep and not wake up. I wanted to die but I didn’t know how to do that. If I could just disappear, I would have been happy. I never could do that either.

Therefore, I grew up despite my inadequacies. Along the way, there were far too many bumps, I thought. When I grew up and look back at my child hood there were some good times, and there were a few times that I did shine in my own right. Remembering an assignment that we had to do on the spur of the moment, the teacher asked us all how we would act if we found a mouse in our slipper when we got out of bed. The teacher called on each of us in no particular order. She usually called on me last and this time was no different. Each student did nothing but yawned, stretched, put their slippers on, ran and screamed. I am so glad that I was last because I thought the way they were all doing the same thing was stupid.

When finally my turn came around I yawned too, but I also wiped the sleep from my eyes, stretched, and yawned again. I then picked up one slipper put it on and put my foot back on the floor. I then slipped my other foot into the other slipper made a puzzled face wiggled my foot, and then I picked up my slipper, looked in it shook it . As I watched a mouse drop out of my slipper and scurry away down the hall I  took a deep noisy breath, made my eyes wide open.; and then I made a  my face scrunched up in disgust, and then I yelled out “mom, Mom,  and threw my slipper on the floor. My teacher applauded me and said that what I did would happen in a real situation. You had to look to see what it was first. She praised me in front of the class. I did shine inside and out. It made me feel so happy the rest of the day.

This class was on public speaking and I loved it. Another time I shimmered was on an assignment of comedy. We were all to write about a funny way something was invented. I told my dad I was stuck and didn’t know what to write about. My dad said he had an idea. I could write on how the twist was invented. I asked what he meant he said maybe an ice cube had somehow fallen down into a fat ladies dress. I thought about that and since it was freezing cold while it was melting, she turned one way and then other just trying to get the ice cube out of her dress without reaching inside her dress. As she shimmered this way and that, all the while screaming OOH, OOh, It finally fell out but not before the kids were laughing  and they started doing this new dance. They started calling it the twist and from now on, the twist has been a big fat hit.

The other kids in the class loved it and the teacher was howling. Of course, I acted like what she might be doing. All were laughing so much. I walked to my seat and had to pass the teacher. I remember her asking me if I had thought of that myself. I had to admit that my dad came up with the idea, but I wrote the story. She had an A in her book, but she marked it down to a B-. I still gleamed that day, so there was another shimmer in my life. I’m sure there were other times I sparkled too. I just can’t think of them right now.

Somehow as time went on, I grew from a shy child that could hardly speak above a whisper, to a woman who could voice her opinion in a loving way. It was time, circumstances, and effort that brought me out of my shell and blossom into a writer that is able, as are many others, to put down thoughts that are understood, heartfelt, and touches hearts and funny bones.

5 thoughts on “Shimmer

  1. Honestly, there are still tears in my eyes. I laughed at the twist story until tears were flowing down. So much fun. I hope you continue with this story to let us know where you are today and how the experiences you had transformed you from the timid person to who you are today. I am very interested in the story. Will you offer me this gift?


    1. Oh my goodness, I hadn’t planned on writing a series on that topic, but your comment made me think that I need to. Great. I’m not quite done with the Dementia series yet, but it’s getting there. He is going into a nursing home on Wednesday.
      A series on me. Thank you for your idea and encouragement. Thank you Thank you


      1. Thank you for welcoming my encouragement. That’s very nice of you. There’s nothing sweeter than encouraging a positive minded person. I happen to know the power of encouragement can take someone to the moon so I don’t spare the opportunity when it comes because I enjoy helping people make the most of their lives.


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